I Meant, What If

Saturday, December 23, 2006

I don't know

What's worth fighting for

Or why

I have to scream

I felt like a fuck yesterday, seriously.

I totally agree with whut the alumni bm said yesterday. Like whut he said was totally true? The whole band's attitude suck, including mine. I'm gonna work dayyyyym hard for this coming concert. Plus my Thunder, i kept screwing it up &i don't want to screw it up during concert. This is not gonna be the worst concert everrr. But i have like confidence in Perc, i think we can do it. If we play our best, i beliv we can make it :D, I hope.

Rushed down to buy food for the section cos everybody's having meetings &stuff. I'M TOTALLY SORRY FOR NOT COLLECTING MONEY &DO THE CHECKS &ALL, MY BAD. I thought Cherine was still in school but she rushed off too &it's still like, my bad. That's why i was like, rushing. I thought i could make it back to school earlier? I'm wrong but still, I don't need shits when i got back to school right? Like the people who wanted to pay paid me before i went down. I'm damn sorry for not being able to check the uniform shit cos my mind's filled with all the blazer shit.

&then they told me some Clarinetist's gonna perform &i didn't order her skirt. Everybody told me she wasn't performing. If you're thinking i should just order everybody's skirt even when they're not performing, she's not even in Singapore @that time if i'm not wrong, that's why i didn't take her size &everything. So now a few days before the concert, you're telling me she's performing &you expect me to do magic &make another skirt appear? So like, my fault? If yes, then i'm sorry. I can't do magic.

I'm like in a mess now. My life is always in a mess before any &every concert, it suck.

I'm sorry to everybody if i showed anybody attitude yesterday. I was really feeling like shit cos i couldn't do anything a UIC should do. I'm sorry Sockling about the brushes &stuff. That's all i could find in the room. &Thanks Yingsi, for helping me check the uniform.

Had Sammy's bday celebration before sectionals. But i was feeling like, > :( Totally no mood @all. Then i went mad during sectionals cos i thought of another goal in lifeeee. Life goes on even when shit happens right? So might as well live it happily :D

&Thanks everyone for the early christmas presents+cards. Sorry i'm like going budget but i think i'm still gonna get presents, just a bit later.

Byeeeeee

8:41 PM