I Meant, What If

Sunday, December 31, 2006

This is the worst year no one wants to go countdown with me. The guys all want to stare @their computer &the girls i also don't know whut they doing. No one wants to go with me, not even my own mother, HEARTLESS. All i know is Vanessa is facing the same thing as me lol, we could've wenta Sentosa j now maybe they're counting down alrd. I was msging her i thought she was there i would've went. But she is, like me rotting away.

I'm not asking people who stay miles away since by the time they reach, it's next year alrd. &i'm serious.

10:57 PM

Do you care if I

Don't know what to say

Will you sleep tonight

Or will you think of me

EL MINSTREL VII IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR :D

K i'm abit late though, cos yesterday i was sleeping z lol. Was supposed to go town but then i forgot abt it since i woke up late afternoon ? Lol.

El Minstrel is over over over over over! K it's abit sad luh, come to think of it i've spent 3years in AHBand alrd. &this shld be the last concert me &all the sec3s are gna perform as a player of the band :( The last performance we're gonna put up is SYF nextyr then tada, handoverrrr i can smell you (:

So wenta school early early in the morn &i reached ard 8+ ? Rushed to buy stockings @85 first cos i brought a black one instead -.- So i was looking all over luckily i found a shoe shop. Was late cos i had smthg on in the morn so like i rushed in when they was abt to play alrd. Lol plus i just wore the skirt up in the hall, so diulian omg lol. Wasn't very good cos i think the band wasn't warmed up ? So like aft that walked ard &waited for second rehearsal which felt like a day later to me. Omg really. So yeah in between we watched the uniformgrps &i thought they did the same thing since i was secone, serious.

Then we took the bus to S C H ! :D Omg rocking. Reached &all then setup then rehearsal then ate some freaky food then prepared. O m g. So scary! First piece became Thunder so it was only Perc &we had to stand in front! Haha thanks to the workers there i got a carpet for my floortom haha omg thanks a million! Haha cos during rehearsals the GB said they could see the tom moving, like it's gonna drop anytime LOL. Then i managed to damp the timpani for HeyJude &we played well for MrChua's pieces i guess, &he was kinda happy ? I even managed to crescendo from ff to some weird fffffffffffff @the last suspend part for GoldenAge. But then we screwed Cherry my bongo was on the wrong side &i screwed Satchmo :( My wrong note was, uh distinct LOL. But Under the sea was okayy! Anyway Highsch was good although we were rushing like mad but i acty could keep up the beats. Anyhow, people who came said it was good :D Thanks man! &thanks for the flowerrrrrrrrs! &thanks everybody for coming! I love all of you :D

K anyway Mengjit was really funny cos we were not playing for Novena, which was right after Thunder, she told me backstage that she said the 'Har!' before our solo ends &like everybody saw lol omg. She even raised up her hand &al, so like she told me Huiling was smiling. Omg luckily i wasn't next to her cos i will be laughing like totally serious. Anyhow i look drunk in all the pictures i took there.

So after the concert went back to sch. Then some of the sec3s wenta eat supperrrrr :D I was shit tired &al so i was kinda bored &didn't make noise, until they started talking about Huaibin lol. Had some Rotijohn shit which tastes weird+teh peng :D Then cabbed home w Camilla &reached home @like 2? Then i watched yulebai but i don't know why it's cast so late i thought it was @1 ? K then i fell asleep &woke up late nx afternoon LOL.

I did 2Geog article shit yesterday since i forgot to go out. I was still wondering how come i was kinda free although i rmb got smthg on &i forgot whut. Neh mind then i felt gay so i stopped the articles. Wanted to do Chinese but no push lol. Went online &Cam &Calista told me MrsChuah gna be our form teacher agn. Ohgod whut did i do to deserve this :( Checked my phone @ard 5 cos i left it to charge then i realise i was sup to go out @12. Whutever la then i watched tv then time pass really fast then it was 1+ again :( But i woke up kinda early tdy i woke up @12! Did one chinese compo &while i was trying to clear all the compos i did into my file, i horridly found out i left not one compo in the band room, but TWO okay. I went ard yest telling one, but then i found out it's two. WONDERFUL. K wanted to do Maths since MrsChuah is the form teacher agn, so DUH is no need intro &al the first thing she comes in is Class, hand in your assignment to your respective reps. Z but best i don't know how to do @al. Can't understand aaaaaaaaah cheebong.

Anyhow i think it's time for some reflections of the year &i'm making it short. This year passed really quickly like flyyyyyyyy. First was ChronoAnimato start of the year &then studies &then midyears &al. Didn't do well but then blah. Then blahblah sportsday blah esplanade piano exam then endyears ? Did even worse like %^*(#%^ So i'm mugging nx year if i ve time, since it's SYF year also, so i think i'll do even worse LOL. I think i'll do emo post tmr or later luh LOL.

I'm bored tdy no one wants to go countdown w me tnight. They guys al said countdown is boring z they al busy killing each other with their computers :(

5:19 PM

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

I feel coooooooool tdy [: Like, ultimately cooooolio, THIS cool :D

I learnt how to let goooo tdy :D Let go of ChickenChop whoooooooooo. You don't know how cool is it. Because of that i decided to let go of alot of things &become a happy person again! (: Cos life goes on right? So might as well let go &forget ALL hatred &smile to everybody! :D Things that re meant to be ours will come back to us LOL :D Salad ChickenChop made me became like this! :D I'm a happy person i talked to nearly everybody tdy i even talked to someone i decided to hate not long ago. I feel, so no stress alrd!

See people, life goes on so must live it to the fullest! :D Stop hating people &all, so no point in the end. Make friends with the whole world then you've more friends &no enemy! Hahahh plus learn how to let go! You'll find yourself so much more stress-less! You know, you'll be THIS happy whoooooooo.

Hahah i saw _______ ! Hahah omg Sockling! :D Lol k i'm being happy so i'm like, abit weeeeeird ? LOL.

I'm gay+lame tdy, i ve a plaster on my face &i look like a lunatic, but i'm okay with it cos i'm like, happy &gay tdy? Rofl blehhhhhh :D

So right! Must learn how to let go! If you can't come come i can teach youuuuuuu (: I'm more than happy to do that! :D I'm gonna be happy &happy &even more happy! &plus tdy i gave out most of the pants &skirts &all i feel even more stress-less WHOOOOO &i'm gg to band tmr! :D At first i wasn't going mm then cos i felt i've alot of things to doooo so, yeah [:

Let go &be happy! :D

8:59 PM

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas! :D

Yesterday night was preeeeeeeety funny haha i was home till evening haha gayyyyyyyyyy [:

Went out &gayed around tdy then wenta watch the stupid channel8 show which was sooooo funny haha @bro's house x) I'm going home sooooon!

Haha i'm v happy alrd people you don't ve to care about me anymore HAHAHAHAHHH

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

11:02 PM

Saturday, December 23, 2006

I don't know

What's worth fighting for

Or why

I have to scream

I felt like a fuck yesterday, seriously.

I totally agree with whut the alumni bm said yesterday. Like whut he said was totally true? The whole band's attitude suck, including mine. I'm gonna work dayyyyym hard for this coming concert. Plus my Thunder, i kept screwing it up &i don't want to screw it up during concert. This is not gonna be the worst concert everrr. But i have like confidence in Perc, i think we can do it. If we play our best, i beliv we can make it :D, I hope.

Rushed down to buy food for the section cos everybody's having meetings &stuff. I'M TOTALLY SORRY FOR NOT COLLECTING MONEY &DO THE CHECKS &ALL, MY BAD. I thought Cherine was still in school but she rushed off too &it's still like, my bad. That's why i was like, rushing. I thought i could make it back to school earlier? I'm wrong but still, I don't need shits when i got back to school right? Like the people who wanted to pay paid me before i went down. I'm damn sorry for not being able to check the uniform shit cos my mind's filled with all the blazer shit.

&then they told me some Clarinetist's gonna perform &i didn't order her skirt. Everybody told me she wasn't performing. If you're thinking i should just order everybody's skirt even when they're not performing, she's not even in Singapore @that time if i'm not wrong, that's why i didn't take her size &everything. So now a few days before the concert, you're telling me she's performing &you expect me to do magic &make another skirt appear? So like, my fault? If yes, then i'm sorry. I can't do magic.

I'm like in a mess now. My life is always in a mess before any &every concert, it suck.

I'm sorry to everybody if i showed anybody attitude yesterday. I was really feeling like shit cos i couldn't do anything a UIC should do. I'm sorry Sockling about the brushes &stuff. That's all i could find in the room. &Thanks Yingsi, for helping me check the uniform.

Had Sammy's bday celebration before sectionals. But i was feeling like, > :( Totally no mood @all. Then i went mad during sectionals cos i thought of another goal in lifeeee. Life goes on even when shit happens right? So might as well live it happily :D

&Thanks everyone for the early christmas presents+cards. Sorry i'm like going budget but i think i'm still gonna get presents, just a bit later.

Byeeeeee

8:41 PM

Friday, December 22, 2006

Thanks everybody for making me feel as if i'm useless today.

7:59 PM

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Cause everything

that you thought I would be

Has fallen apart

right in front of you

You know people you know! Christmas is comingggggg! :D Lol i only realised it tdyyyy when Germaine &Jan were telling me hohahoha. I didn't even know Monday was Christmas &there's no band z rofl. I told you i'm a busy person [: K that's so not the pointttt. The point is, christmas is cominggggg! I'm trying to get the excitement budden this year it's like, no mood at all? Neh mind anwayyy the point is, get me presentssssssssss! :D O m g buy me the kinderrsurprise thing! Hahaha cos i haven't ate/eaten/eat them in ages so like, i suddenly feel like eating! Haha o m g lol. &i also want the you know, massagestick thing from minitoons! You know this stick thing with an octopus(?)/watermelon on top! OMG it's like superrr gay but i like hahah. Plus this damn big barney i saw @Toys R'us + whutever presents you intend to give me :D I'll accept every present anybody gave lollll i'm like fucking greedy hahah.

Anway went for band tdy &this Jap conductor came to give us comments &he spent 2hrs on Cherry. So like we didn't do Safari in the end. But he is good &he gave Perc alot of comments so yeah. But i'm like fucking disappointed in my stupid Bongos part cos i kept forgetting :( Seriously man, i kept getting confused &didn't know wtf i was doing. K z then after prac Mengz Shu &me went Tamp again in hope to see Orange Bandanna, &he wasnt there agn lol. So anwayy before that something happened and i needed another something but i don't ve this another something so i asked ard &everybody(as in the other 2) don't ve the another something also. So Mengz suggested i use this something, &it actually worked lol. Okay it sounds confusing so i'm not gna elaborate anymore :D

I feel like buying christmas present for alot of people but im not in any christmas moood :( Hahah plus i'm going on budget roflmao. I swear this is getting nowhere z.

Byeeeeeeeeeeeeee

8:57 PM

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Frap Love

I hate rainy days. Aaaaaaaaaah :(

It had been raining non-stop like since yesterday? It really didnt stop ok! It just went lighter, &then it went heavy again. Haha so like during the last 15minutes of sectionals yesterday we were running across in the rain, but at that time we ran the rain kinda became very very light, kinda no point lol.

Went for piano just now &luckily my dad could drive me there, but i had to be 15minutes early. Haha so i had to wait like for 15 minutes. Anyway that's not the point. After piano, i had to go home myself. So while i was waiting for the light to turn green, i saw 358 stopping at the light so i ran towards the bus stop. Like i was behaving like a total lunatic. Seriously cos i was running on the deeeeep puddles :( Some guy was staring @me &i betcha he thought i'm crazy. &that's not the point yet. I was a few steps from the bus stop &obviously the bus saw me but then it didnt stop. &@(*#!^ Omg you have no idea how angry i was ok! So like luckily the next bus came in ard 5minutes. I was being like a fuck again i boarded the bus and had to carry this half-closed umbrella &dig for coins. But i couldn't be bothered anymore so i just put 50cents since i can't find another 5cents. Aiyah so like the driver also couldn't be bothered to give me a ticket luh. It's alrd common i seldom put 55cents in the thingo. I only put 40cents yesterday rofl. But i also always put 60cents one ok! &i rmb i was so stupid once i put 1$ :( So like, it's gonna cover up al my 5cents hahh.

I just heard the news &it was saying smthg like there's a flood in singapore? O m g lol. &smre got landslide @some Orchard area z. Kinda stupid &lame lolllll.

Byeeeeeeee

11:02 PM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

So like some fucker started to impersonate me on Seemui's blog, wtf?! Loserrrrrrrr.

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K yeeah i used to like Daren, but not till that crazy extent right! &plus, he's alrd out &that's kinda failure alrddddd so yeah. I'm not even watching Project Superstar anymore.

Like, this is totally ridiculous luh. Plus hey, if you like Daren righto, then use your own fucking name luh, don't spoil my beautiful name! And typing like: ning tuhh(wtf?) blahblah. Omg tuhh? Wtf language is that! &omgz replying to others in other's tagboard is even more shit ridiculous. OhMyGodzilla. So stop spoiling my name cos i don't even reply to tags @my own tagboard. Stop being a loserrrrr.

Yeah so there's even people scolding me @her tagboard, cos they thought i wrote al those shit.

Anywayyyyyy went to VJBand's concert on Fri. Band in the morn first till ard 1+. Then Perc went to eat &then had a little sectionals! Then we alighted @the wrong stop to VJ so we had to run like 3busstops? Omg gay. I was sweating like a madfuck when i entered the hall and guess who we saw when we stepped inside. Haha omg.

I'm not telling whut i did yesterday+today so yeah. Bye.

8:40 PM

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Ten times the joyyyyy

I'm gayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Haha okay like, i'm happyyyyyyyyy :D

I don't know why hahahaha. K went Tamp w Vanessa after a million years lol, &we wanted to eat @LongJohn cos we wanted to see OrangeBandana(?)! Then he wasn't there! Haha like, maybe he quitted rofl. So we were sad :( Omg hahahahaha like real. I rmb the last time we went tgt w Shuhan Mengjit we nearly died laughing. Like everytime he got near to us we will be like, omg yeah haha. Okay but being the very moodswinging us, we became happy the next moment. So we went into the lib &there was this funny exibition &we played with everything there haha there was this superrr gay thing which can see opposite then omg is really will bao xiao! LOL. we were like shouting&screaming inside the library omgaaaaa. &then we sat inside the lib &talked about alot of things like haha superr funny omgoodness.

K i'm being abit gayyyyy againn. Whoohoo i haven't did/do/done any homework so goodluck to myself! :D WHOOHOOOOO.

Anyway did you watch the stupid award thing for channel 8 stupid shit thing. Omg Weilian got like 2 awards? I nearly died man. If he this kind call can act, i can act better okay. Anyway the place this year to give the awards was quite gay also, like damn small &all. &they invited so many foreign artistes to come give awards! Omg degrading them luhh. Neh mind none of my business right i know :D

Goodbye lovessssssss

9:12 PM

Saturday, December 09, 2006

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one i see

V is very, very extraordinary

E is even more than anyone than you adore

Omg i woke up @7.30 tdy &met Mengjit at like 8.10? Omg for once i was superrrr early for band hoha! :D &then we wenta NgeeAnn! Omg their percs are so laughable! [: Damn cooooolio haha.

Band then i think they chose Safari as set piece? Went back early cos i've piaaaano :( Okay luh piano was not so bad, i think i got improve leh haha :) Sunrise s not bad also luh! Just that perc very littleeeeeeee parts. So like yeah then i slacked ard the coffeeshop &then went homee.

I still've a few tickets to sell off by this wkend!!! Omg save me loll

Ohyeahh the wet&wild viddddddd! I'm not uploading the one me&mengzzz is in cos haha she was wearing a white shirtttt &it went totally transparent after the ride so like haha only Meiyan will take this kinda vid lol. So i won't put up the stupid video or she'll kill me hahh. SOOOOOOO i'm gonna put up someone else's haha omg i'm soooo evil. So like below is the evidence of Seemui bao xiao-ing at every ride lolll :D

12:08 AM

Thursday, December 07, 2006

I declare that my all-time favourite song = My Band! :D

O M G i haven't put up the vids of Wet &Wild hohahohahoha! Whutevuhhhhh (:

8:33 PM

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Knock me out

everytime they touch me

I'm coughing again &my tougue hurt like hellllll i don't know why. Motherrrrrr :( I think i eat too much hahah, i eat &eat &eat non-stop. Like, hahah serious.

&i'm overspending! This shouldn't be happening at all :(

Okay whutever haha like i'm putting this > :( to act like i'm emo hahahahahah whutever! K luh blahblahblah z O M G this Tank's song in Hana Kimi is superrrrrr nice! Like, now my TopRated playlist only has this Zhuan Shu Tian Shi (?) song+Gui Ji+Wu Neng Wei Li+Duan Dian+Zi Lian+Ben Lai+Gu Dan Xing Shi+Qian Nian Lei+Yi Yan Wan Nian+Wo De Wei Lai Bu Shi Meng+Ni Wo Shi Sha Gua+Soledad+Numb+My Band+Beep+Boston! :D Haha omgomgomg [: Okay that's alot but i don't care cos i like whoohooooo:D

I hate the blogskin already i'm gonna change it > :)

I'll put up the wet&wild vids tmr hahahahaha cos Meiyan wasn't playing so took the stupid vids of us being soaked hahah. I tell you i looked super dumb cos like, i haven't recover from shock when i reach below &i was practically staring @myself cos i was so stunned cos i was TOTALLY wet :D Neh mind you get to see my condition when i upload them soon [:

Goodbye :D:D:D:D:D

11:25 PM

Saturday, December 02, 2006

You will get it when the time comes

when the time comes

Yaozehhhhhhh (: K so like, i didn't blog for alot alot of days cos i was dayyyym busy haha. Omgaa whatever haha.

Band on Weds &then stayed back &Yingzhi was telling me about how she nearly slept in the same hotel room with this male family friend alone lol. Haha then left @ard 5+.

City Slickers on Thurs! :D Haha amagaaaad so Wenyi &me was re-discussing on whut we were going t do there on the MRT hahh omgoodness so fun. Had t go t Harbourfront first t get cluecards &then haha we were @the stupid pool there then there were like alot of little kids having excursion there! So like there was this four kids standing in a row facing the sea looking upwards so Wenyi was telling me they remind her of F4. Then i started singing the 'Pei ni qu kan liu xing yu' part of the Meteor rain song then the four of them started pointing to the sky. OMGGGGGG HAHAHAHAHAHA so both of us were like laughing like some retarded. Like cause obviously they couldn't hear us we were like at a distance from them lolllll. They were superrr duperr cute so we went to take a picture with them heho! (:

Met Mengz &Shu who rushed into CandyEmpire like they've never seen it before when we just reached Vivo then headed off back to our station @Boonlay. Both of them bought super alot of things @CandyEmpire haha so funny they were eating and eating z. So both of them went with us cos Meng's station was the last one so she got alot of free time haha. So our station was like superr crowded with station masters! :D Wenyi &me+ Shu+ Mengz+ Jan+ Mianmian+ Van+ Sammy+ Junhan = Our station! Haha so me &Wenyi thought of alot of new things cos so many people wanted to be part of our station rofl. So like they were supposed to run ard/hide in the mall &the groups were supposed to find them. Obviously that was not all right! They had to do alot of things but they had to find us somewhere in the mall first hahh, so we were like behind this wall at Macs &my red hulahoop(?) ard me was so obvious but all of the groups took very long to find both of us! Meiyan &her grp walked past us at least 5times before they found us so we were laughing like some stupid asshole at Macs without ordering anything. I think we sat there for at least 2hrs omgaad. &other groups who reached later were running ard like some idiot &we saw them passing us like super alot of times! So it was damn busy both of us had alot of calls+msgs. K so some grps were very relaxed while some are super hiong lol. Anyway most of the groups failed haha! :D

Went back to PasirRis after like 4hours (: Most of the groups took at least 1&half hours @our station loll so plus the time we waited for them and shop here shop there it was so long lol. Get the bags to the chalet, haha saikang. But being a kind+good person i carried like alot of bags! Got to the chalet @ard 6+ cos Shu &Wenyi were rotting at my house &watching YuLeBai before getting back to the chalet. Watched TianWaiFeiXian @7! :D! Then ProjSupaastarr omgz Daren! Seemui &Fiona was also in th room w me Wenyi &Shu so they were laughing like madfucks @the guy who got out in the end. Cos his actions were superr spastic! Omgggg hahaha. Then Junhan got angry cos me &amp;Wenyi were full &we didn't want to eat dinner with them, wtf? Then we headed to the arcade &slack ard :D PhotoHunt &Basketball! :D I think i'm addicted to both of them haha. Back to the chalet then went home. Mengjit stayed over cos she didnt want to stay over @the chalet hah. Talk till ard 3am then slept &woke up damn early. Wenyi flew off t Americaa that morning! Haha rmb t get me an angmoh lol :)

Slacked ard then went back to the chalet. Went to the arcade &played Photohunt! KiaYong was damn good haha &he was super funnyy. Cos the errors were like at some funny parts so he kept going: Wo ye kan dao yi ge le ke shi wo bu yao an! (i also saw one alrd but then i don't want to press!) Then went back to chalet &some of them suggested cycling. But then cos the blades would be damn smelly &i didn't bring my own blades so i don't want to blade. Plus i very long never cycle i don't want to fall down. So me &Mengz didn't go w them in the end. We wenta Escape w Meiyan Seemui Ziyun Shiling &Jiahao haha! Cos we wanted to go Escape very long but nobody want t go so yeahhh then i was so happy when i got out of Cheers &saw Ziyun &she wave to me &tell me they are going to Escape! Then i rushed to tell Mengz who was eating the stupid MeePok haha. It was super fun even though it rain for awhile. Went back like two times cos my shorts ripped apart(k not exactly:D) &our shirt got damn wet after wet&wild. I tell you i was super scared of the Family Coaster thing even though it's kiddy. I sat it last time &i wasn't afraid at all, i mean at all. &this time i thought i was going to fly off haha. Viking was damn funny cos Seemui was opposite me &she kept laughing like some retard lol. Like, bao xiao-ing. &people on the same turn as us were damn pei he cos when we go up we scream their side go up they scream haha. Then played the train thing haha so diulian. Wet&wild was like gay cos i was wet like some psycho. Met ZheYi @the carnival there. Haha i think she was with her sister &friends haha. Then met Yanhong &friends then we played Viking again &Seemui was in front of me this time &she kept turning back &laugh, as in bao xiao. So i kept laughing. Then played some stupid flipper thing which looked very scary but wasn't. It was spinning ard very fast but i was answering the phone with people ard me screaming. Mengjit's mother was on the other side of the phone &i think she had a very bad impression of me cos i was screaming into the phone rofl. Saw some actor guy there &some campussuperstar twin person. Then back t th chalet @ard 7+! BBQ(: Only BBQed marshmellowwwwws cos the sec2s bbqed the others for us:D So sweet right, haha okay.

Went home cos mengz need t get her bag &the chalet people looked damn tired so i didn't go back in the end haha. Fell asleep when i lie on the bed &woke up damn late tdy. Going t my Granma's later!!! OMGAAAAA I THINK I'M GOING ESCAPE AGAIN W AMANDA TMR HAHAHAHAH O M G. Okay, maybe i shall change it to next wk or smthg? Anywayyy Amanda said she wanted to have a feast before christmas haha WOAH. &she asked me first leh! I know she love me alot but then no need so obvious right! Okay luh whutever she's gonna kill me if she sees this haha.

K this was last week's i think :D

4:36 PM