I Meant, What If

Friday, July 14, 2006

this few days were kinda busy so, i didnt blog. anyway, i saw sebastian at Dhoby Ghaut mrt th other day!!!!! (: triple smiles. He like, bleachd his hair he lookd super different but he s still like, super cute! :D

ok below ll be kinda emo so if you really, really cannot stand th emo-ness or anythg, then dont look at this post anymore. i wont put th emo stuffs as background or wtv cos i think it s friggin unnecessary. kpo people like me will also see them whut. so whatever. you ll get t see everything.

Anyway, after band tdy some of us played dancin' megahits. i dont know but then i think th song kinda brought back some of my passion for band. i dont know about others but then i can really feel th stress when i go band now. okay not that i have really, really big responsibilities but then you know, even amanda was like, "you know right, although i only go band on monday, i can feel th stress alrd lor!" even amanda leh! i mean like, she doesnt go for band frequently nd all, she only startd gg since th handover. then sometimes i go for band cos like, i think i need t go. i think my passion is really gone. then after playg dancin' megahits i was very happy nd all, i dont know la. maybe cos peiqian nd kohshing came back, then i have th feelg of being a secone agn [: you know, sometimes i want t go back t secone again. i have no stress, nothg. sometimes when i get bored, i might skip band once in awhile, this i dont deny. but now it s like, i dont know how t say. anyway, th song brought back alot of memories cos that was one of th song i playd in my first concert, at th esplanade there. i rmbd playg th shaker like it was some superr difficult instrument, nd my first time wearg th band uni nd omg th one that left a friggin impression on my mind was th court shoes!!!!! it made blisters on our legs so me van nd mengjit kept gg t th toilet, paste th plasters. i rmb th almond jelly!!!!! hoho that was my first concert okay!!! it al seemd like it happend yesterday, i rmbd th event superr fondly. but then, it doesnt seem like, 2 years alrd past. :( i rmb th old band room nd how th three of us always anyhow go play th auxillaries(spellg error) to blend in th song! we were like, only sec ones then. nd then now th secfours are leavg alrd i think band ll not be as much fun as last time, i can sense that people are more serious than last time alrd. nd i know our batch has a lot of internal conflicts. anyway thats not th point. i just think that dancin' megahits can bring back alot alot of memories nd then maybe a little of my passion will come back, i hope it does anyway. i dont wanna find band meaningless you know.

they tell me your blue skies fade t grey, they tell me your passion s gone away :(

t yingsi:
i hope you ll read this but maybe you might not even come here or whatsoever. i dont know, but then i can kinda sense th drift. im not really like that close t you but then you know, yep. i know whut happened nd stuffs although i didnt attend th meetg nd shits. im really, really sorry. i mean serious im really really superr sorry. i know i have a big mouth nd then i like gossip about everybody. but then i didnt mean it, im superrrrrrrr sorry. maybe you ll not like forgive or anythg but then im like superrrrrr sorry! you know i cant shut up i can talk about anybody. my brains are like not workg it always causes me t say stuffs that shouldnt be said or whut. omg sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. aiyah you can j put al th blame on me or smthg!!!!! im super superr sorry alrights :( anyway, happy birthday [:

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