I Meant, What If

Monday, July 31, 2006

Ok some of th pictures from yesterday! :D (today s post below)

Yep that s some of th pics. I ve like over 100 pics altogether! [: Blooger died on me so i used photobucket shizz. Nd go http://ohmychocolate.shutterfly.com for th rest of th pics! Haha i know i look like shit in some of th pics but it s still there cos i wont dlt th pic j because im ugly while th other person s pretty [: Im not mean ok! At most i ll color my face away :D Yep nd if there s a need for password right, come nd ask from me! [:

Meanwhile, there s still,

Th perc solo!!!!! :D

8:58 PM

Yesterday was th esplanade concert thingo!!! [:

I was feelg superr excited about it once i reachd th place hahaha! It was very, very fun ok! Haha on saturday i was still tellg everyone im not nervous/excited/moody/happy about th whole concert thingo, nd everyone said im weird loll. Reachd school early in th morning nd th schedule was very hectic. Wantd t get th gel nd pins frm th alumni rm but then th whole school was lockd up other than th band room that place :( Anyway, everyone gatherd at th concourse there before boardg th bus yep, nd we al lookd like we re gg overseas or smthg. With al th bags, instru, blahblahblah we re carryg lol.

Nd as you know, th percs ll always go high on any bus trips : D

Then we reachd nd hahahahaha : D ok im mad lolllll. Then we enterd th room for band ahahaha it was superr cool! Took a lot of pictures [: Th mirrors re like al those ge tai backstage th mirrors like that! You know, th kind got lightbulbs ard th mirror one! Superr nice leh! At first i thought these only appear in olden HongKong tv shows. But then a while later, a few lightbulbs startd t burn lolllll, nd it burnd a hole into someone s shirt or smthg durg makeup time ahaha. Then their toilet in th room was even nicer! : D it s so big nd it s not a cubicle that kinda toilet. It s like normal toilets with mirrors nd many many cubicles! Somore got shower room nd inside got bath soap nd shampoo nd conditioner. But th shower toilet got no locks ahaha, dont know why lol. Then th toilet bowl superr cold. Lol whateverr la. Th whole toilet thingo damn cool.

Then we had technical runthrough [: Very coolz, but th light parts still very lag. Ahaha but it was fun nd stuff [: Our tech run took th longest haha. Too many chairs, too many stands lol. We very picky right loll. Then th perc even worst, we need table then th person gave us this superr long table but it was cool! Just th correct height for th temple block nd auxillaries(sp)! Better than th actual one he gave us which was like a furniture that was only 30cm in height? Or even lesser lmao. Oh then th gong thingo nd everything. Haha th floor superr slippery cos it s smooth then i damn scared th conga ll j roll down when i start hittg it roflol.

Then was lunch! Lol if im not wrong la. So we went t th artiste lounge thing nd there got sofas! AHAHA rofl, th percs went mad cos we were th first ones t reach(cos we dont have t close instru, carry instru, blahblahblah) then we went t th sofa surroudg th tv nd startg testg on them lol. I think people there think that we re suakus. Lol whateverr la but it s still very fun! : D Lunch was okay but th rice very hard lolll.

Then was full-dress but not for band ahaha : D Kinda good nd al, yepz (: Then after that we gayd ard blahblahblah, nd put th make-ups[: Went for finale rehearsal then wait wait wait lorz. Then even more pictures [: Then th photoshoot thingo nd my kneelength stockgs kept on droppg so i wenta changd another one, then damned i got scammd or whutever you call that. But im not gonna talk about unhappy stuffs, cos th whole thingo s happy.

Then was our performance which i thought was quite good already [: We al did our best so no regrets! :D Damn happy canz. My solo was good i think, cos i kinda playd louder nd there wasnt wrong notes [: Perc solo was good, cos even wrong notes werent obvious :D And i think th band was really, really good :D

Everyone startd going high after our performance when we went back t our room. It s kinda weird cos we re th first item then when we were damn high nd were down there playg around cos our performance s over, but other performg arts grps havent even performd nd were al stressd up lol. Okay then was photowhorg ahaha i have like over 100 pictures of yesterday inside my cam now! [: Yesterday only you know! :D I think i took pictures with nearly th whole of sec 3s :D Nd alot alot of other people! I kept going mad nd wenyi kept remindg me of my pervertic smile ahaha.

Then dinner which was even more hectic cos of th overlykind(like real) nccs who brought our food up t th room without tellg us so we went down nd we went up again then we went down again(th artiste lounge s downstairs) cos there got tv nd we can watch th concert there [: Nd we were sup t eat there in th first place lol. For th whole day band was superr noisy nd th seniors were quite pissd nd so is shuhan nd junhan. But i think everybody enjoyd themselves la.

Then went for finale nd we sang from th choir gallery! :D After that somehow we went back t behind th choir gallery nd then th lights suddenly shut nd i was so high then i startd singing th phantom part(cos you know after they shut lights then th phantom part starts!) then van joind in then th sec twos joind in then th whole band joind in! [: Ok maybe not th whole la, but it was very, very loud! Even though th backstage place was damn small nd crowded, it was still fun! Then was another photoshoot(wah lame right) then was going back time!

Packg up nd shits then i was superr tired in th bus nd al. Back t school whole leg numb omgoodness. Then cant take it went home lorz, nd reach home alrd after midnight lo. I cant believe last year sometimes i went out until 3am i still very energetic lehz, aiyah old alrd larz. Lao le jiu shi lao le.

The concert was fun nd high maybe not al because of our playg nd al. It was because of th bondg th band had yesterday. We really like bonded alot la :D At th finale we even kallang waved many times.

So yesterday s performance also marks th last performance nd prac of th sec fours. :( It s sad actually you know, like yeah. It s like, you go band then you see a big part of it missing. Yep they have t study for their Os but i still hope they d come back often larz. Cos th secfours re a very fun batch [: I d miss gossipg with shiyun most ahaha, th gropg incident she told me nd van lolllll. Aiyah anyway i think their journey in band ended very well :D

Oh haha nd i rmberd Friday th guys pissd th geog teacher off(suddenly i got brainblock i forgot her name) by writing on th sheet of paper for presentation: th formation of volcanoes for idiots or smthg like that. Then th word idiot creatd a superr great impact on her then she got superr pissd nd she just walkd out of th class lolllll. Whatever la ahaha [:

Anyway i ve loads of pictures but i havent upload them t th com yet! Pictures ll be up soon! :D

3:19 PM

Thursday, July 27, 2006

Yo im back! [:

Cascada - A Neverending Dream
Groove Coverage - Poison
It s like super duper nice omg[: Im like, back t techno nd trance hahaha j kiddg! But haha got th feel! [:
Lloyd Banks - Till the end
omg i love th till th end omgOmgOMG faints!

The past few days had been quite busy cos i had band like everyday nd there s like tests every day. Not that i didnt come online but then i dont have th mood t post anything at all nehnehnipoopoo[:

Anyway, we had sectionals on Tuesday nd Wednesday nd it was friggin friggin cool okay! Especially th second sectionals! Changed alot of th solo parts but it s still as good! You dont know how cool my solo is! Okay at least i think it s cool [: Triple smiles! :D But then haha i was kinda stressed cos it ended around 6.30 nd i havent start studyg bio nd chi test for th next day(today that is). So haha but turns up th tests were that difficult la :D

Esplanade s this sunday but im not feelg excited/depressed/happy/moody about it at all. Call me weird lorz, whatever. Stayed back today t do some stuff in th band room then intended t self prac but i think i end up eatg in th canteen -.- Haha stayd back cos i ve been stayg back everyday in th week nd it s been a very, very long time since i go home right after school ends. Like, before i joined band? Haha it s that extreme. So today was quite fun larz yep [:

Ahah All hail th high nd mighty percs! :D

Anyway im quite happy but then now i ve t complete my english assignment! Heh or th stupid ass will make me stand outside th damn classroom.

Goodbye, my Lover [:

7:45 PM

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Today was a pretty good day! :D

Had th school s Founder s Day nd haha band had t play 30secs fanfare. So, ahaha we waitd for like ten minutes for th guest of honour t arrive nd we only playd less than a minute. I was like super scared before th concert k, i mean th kind of scared i never experiencd at any band concert, or even SYF. But then it s because th band didnt prac th fanfare at all la haha. Cos we kinda playd it a lot of times at other concerts alrd, but then i dont know how t play okay! Then they didnt prac in th morng also haha so i was super scared i wont hit th first note on beat. Cos one way or another, th most times i ve playd it is like, thrice. You know starting earlier or later than th band super weird onez okay. Then is super loud, so is everyone can hear. Then I playd on th beat okay! I tell you i was superr happy! After that i was high nd was like screamg like a siao women. Haha th photo motivates me t play well! Haha th photo th photo! :D

Haha you know i had a nightmare or smthg last night i kept thinkg/dreamg that i wont be able t finish th band noticeboard nd i wont hit th first note on beat. Omg right! See this is th first time! Okay it happend before la, i think is i never study for some major exam properly then i kept dreamg that i take th paper then i dont know a single shit. Hohoho but then! Today Fiona came very early! So she passd me th pictures nd then i can take down th old ones t put th new ones yay! Hahahahaha triple smiles. So i completd task one! :D Then i completd task two by playg th first note on beat! :D I tell you super happy tdy, even Shiyun nd Qiujun said they could hear me nd i hit on th beat omg canz!

Anyway, i think sometimes th teachers made band very superr embarrassg cos before th whole thingo started they made th band walk in through th aile(?), aiyah th road in th middle of th hall la. So it s superr AA, everyone was lookg at us superr embarrassg.

Yep so today was very fun! Perc dont need wear stockgs ahaha : D Not bias ok! Just that we need t carry th instru so will scratch lol. I think i like th blazer a lot cos it s like super formal [: But a lot of people askd me t change th uniform ahaha wait long long. Okay maybe la.

&guess whut, yingsi nd i talkd tdy! [: She was very nice t forgive[: So we kinda talkd quite a lot yay. It adds on t th happiness! Im blogging because tdy was superr happy larz. Kinda crappd abit yay th past is comg back! :D

Oh you know yesterday i made 38 ties! Omg canz! superr efficient, im going t look at th masks soon [: Okay actually not i efficient, alot is i ask my momsie cut, nd she cut like superr fast lol! Okay larz some credits t cam for volunteerg t help with them although you only come t talk nd cut crookd ties. [: But i did like so many ties in an hour like that! After Cam went back that is. So, i have a brighter future ahead of me alrd! [: It s my first step t becomg th world s best designer! Soon you ll see me in Project Runway[: Then before you know it you ll be wearg my brand s clothg. Okay la im thinkg too much [:

Last week was very busy like we have rehearsals everyday! Quite fun larz, im always lookg forward t rehearsals because can skip classes or a little bit of band or smthg [: Yep, very fun one! But too bad th school s founder s day only like rehearse one time only! Th others are al for th esplanade concert thingo, cos it s th school s anniversary shit. Band s th only cca that took part in both so we re like superr busy so thus we re like th only ccas that hav a lot of rehearsals nd stuff. But im kinda lookg forward t th esplanade performance cos i think it s gonna be like fun[: It s been very very long since band had performances outside school[: Like, th last one was a year ago i think, others re al like in sch, no fun. So yay! [:

I think i ll be piaing my work tdy nd tomorow i havent read through al th tests shits nd th homework shits hahaha. I think im screwd [: But my life is happier not doing/studyng anything [:

Im havg a buffet/bbq ltr! [: Byebye! :D

4:31 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Im sorry for being superr dao/crazy/diao blahblahblah durg band tdy. Im sorry t everyone i daoed or whut or i ve agitatd nd stuffs, friggin sorry. Im superr sorry i broke down after band j now because i cannot take it anymore.

My mum got friggin pissed cos i reachd home ard 8.30 so she startd screamg at me nd al. She fuggin dont understand my stuffs at al, nd like she s always th world, she s always th right one. Whutever la, i care no more.

Uhh t th juniors or whoever who askd whether im okay or not regardless of any communicatg tool, im fine alrd, thanks. It s just some batch problem that you guys ll nv understand la.

Maybe time heals all wounds, although im not sure whether it s true or not.

9:33 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Im sorry all these had t happen.

It s not even boygirl relationships im talkg about alrd, it s just friendship. Maybe like, th trust nd al is gone between everybody in band. I know gossip kills, so if i ever gossippd about you, im sincerely sorry.

I dont know, im feelg like, superr stressd up now. Alot of people had been tellg me their secrets or some very very private stuffs nd all. I ve learnt things th hard way so i wont say out al these no matter whut, nd i mean it. So im sorry if you guys are tellg me stuff nd askg me shits but yet, im not tellg you who what when where how. Especially Vanessa, im really sorry. :( I need t tell someone like how i really really felt now, but like, maybe im in no position t talk, but t me, no one can be trustd alrd, including myself. So i ve alrd promised myself, im not sayg out anything already. Nvm if there s nthg t talk among people, im just keepg my mouth damn shut. Im sorry t all im not tellg you guys things. If i really tell you or smthg, that means we re really close or i trust you nd stuff. But then again, i might ve trusted th wrong person al along.

Anyway, i had my piano exam tdy nd i friggin screwed it up :( I hope i can pass it.

On th happier side, i had durians today! A lot of durians! :D

alot alot of durians! :D

oh nd i bought one small wugui that day nd hung it on my wallet! [:

Anyway, there s band tmr nd stuff. I understand myself. Maybe i ll go cos of my duty nd shits. But, you never know.

If things could stay this way.

9:55 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006

Was rather bored nd not in th mood for blogging for very long.

Good Charlotte - The Day That I Die (:
superr nice! :D

Perc outg on Sunday! haha kinda. Went t FarEast, then Cine, then Heeren! Like, yep it was th most productv outg ever! We managd t get everythg we want :D It was like, quite surprising la [: Then we kinda finishd our food in 15minutes? Yay. Then after that was Mus'Art concert thingo!!! Th perc emsemble thingo was superr coolio [: nd their band was good too. Then had dinner before going home, nd by that time it was 10+ so i calld my dad t fetch me. But i wonder where on earth can you find such a dad that refuse t fetch his own daughter at night nd tellg me t GO HOME MYSELF. Where got mean canz! But then after a quite long argument he decided t drive me back hohoho[:

School was pretty good tdy cos we dont have commontest! Cos i dont take Physics :D Then school ended at 12 cos we had th listeng compre shits which start at like 3. superr dumb. Anyway, a lot of people find th exam easy but then i thought al th answers re like th same nd there s a high possibility of every option t be th correct answer t me.

Im havg my piano grade 7 practical tmr!!! Im like friggin scared pleeeeease! Because i v not familiarisd myself with th scales yet! nd th Aural, die. I think prolly i ll just keep playg th piano from seven al th way until like ten? Haha i need t play properly tmr! I always screw up durg practicals cos i ll be like, tremblg superr hard. :(

Im havg two tests tmr but i ll prolly not turn up cos of my piano exam shitsssss[: Then i cannot seem t find my Bio textbook at home i cant find it in th locker too, nd im havg Bio test on Thurs. Good job hochongning.

Anyway, im still sorry yingsi. I know we made you damn hurt nd stuff, so im really, really sorry. I cannot stop myself from feelg superr guilty too. Im so so so sorry.

I think im going to play th piano soon, byebye! :D

6:53 PM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

I was experimentg with th tagboard j now but i cant seem t do th bold words thingo, so forget it man. :(

Anyway im replying th tags now since it had been ages since i replied t tags, nd im like so bored now.

Startg from yesterday s tags,
huiling: hellooooooo! [:
van: bhb pok lol :D
yingzhi: nyehh you dont look like dhs student must wear okay! [:
delphine: haha hellooooo!
mengjit: secone life s super cool nd fun man! help me help me find th passion back!
jiaxin: then play it! it s super nice! :D
seemui: hahaa it s superr confusg canz! yep dancin' megahits superr nice! [:
chew: hello hello! [:
yingsi: you know, im really really sorry nd i mean it. im very, very sorry abt it :(
yingzhi: haha lol you dont need t tell me that!
jiaxin: loll j dont like lo ahah[:
delphine: ahahahaha you tag again!!!!! gasp!!! ahah is superr shockg! [: yayy hello! :D
van: it is emo la [: just that you think not emo cos you re emo 1 mah ahaha! :D
yingzhi: super sorry abt tdy! cos everythg was luan nd everythg wasnt confirmd. nd i added you alrd!
yongquan: superr guilty now. yep crumpler! [:
jiaxin: maybe my batch disappointd you guys nd all. but i promise we ll do our best. we ll play music okay! nd be much nicer than th choir since you think that they were good. okok! :D

I dont feel like sayg anythg at th blog now. but then, i can feel my passion for band slowly driftg away nd shits. :( but i ll still try my best t find it back, yep.

Anyway i think that s about all, byebye.

9:55 PM

Friday, July 14, 2006

this few days were kinda busy so, i didnt blog. anyway, i saw sebastian at Dhoby Ghaut mrt th other day!!!!! (: triple smiles. He like, bleachd his hair he lookd super different but he s still like, super cute! :D

ok below ll be kinda emo so if you really, really cannot stand th emo-ness or anythg, then dont look at this post anymore. i wont put th emo stuffs as background or wtv cos i think it s friggin unnecessary. kpo people like me will also see them whut. so whatever. you ll get t see everything.

Anyway, after band tdy some of us played dancin' megahits. i dont know but then i think th song kinda brought back some of my passion for band. i dont know about others but then i can really feel th stress when i go band now. okay not that i have really, really big responsibilities but then you know, even amanda was like, "you know right, although i only go band on monday, i can feel th stress alrd lor!" even amanda leh! i mean like, she doesnt go for band frequently nd all, she only startd gg since th handover. then sometimes i go for band cos like, i think i need t go. i think my passion is really gone. then after playg dancin' megahits i was very happy nd all, i dont know la. maybe cos peiqian nd kohshing came back, then i have th feelg of being a secone agn [: you know, sometimes i want t go back t secone again. i have no stress, nothg. sometimes when i get bored, i might skip band once in awhile, this i dont deny. but now it s like, i dont know how t say. anyway, th song brought back alot of memories cos that was one of th song i playd in my first concert, at th esplanade there. i rmbd playg th shaker like it was some superr difficult instrument, nd my first time wearg th band uni nd omg th one that left a friggin impression on my mind was th court shoes!!!!! it made blisters on our legs so me van nd mengjit kept gg t th toilet, paste th plasters. i rmb th almond jelly!!!!! hoho that was my first concert okay!!! it al seemd like it happend yesterday, i rmbd th event superr fondly. but then, it doesnt seem like, 2 years alrd past. :( i rmb th old band room nd how th three of us always anyhow go play th auxillaries(spellg error) to blend in th song! we were like, only sec ones then. nd then now th secfours are leavg alrd i think band ll not be as much fun as last time, i can sense that people are more serious than last time alrd. nd i know our batch has a lot of internal conflicts. anyway thats not th point. i just think that dancin' megahits can bring back alot alot of memories nd then maybe a little of my passion will come back, i hope it does anyway. i dont wanna find band meaningless you know.

they tell me your blue skies fade t grey, they tell me your passion s gone away :(

t yingsi:
i hope you ll read this but maybe you might not even come here or whatsoever. i dont know, but then i can kinda sense th drift. im not really like that close t you but then you know, yep. i know whut happened nd stuffs although i didnt attend th meetg nd shits. im really, really sorry. i mean serious im really really superr sorry. i know i have a big mouth nd then i like gossip about everybody. but then i didnt mean it, im superrrrrrrr sorry. maybe you ll not like forgive or anythg but then im like superrrrrr sorry! you know i cant shut up i can talk about anybody. my brains are like not workg it always causes me t say stuffs that shouldnt be said or whut. omg sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry. aiyah you can j put al th blame on me or smthg!!!!! im super superr sorry alrights :( anyway, happy birthday [:

9:52 PM

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

Omg i saw this really nice purple crumpler!!! [:

But then, sadly, i have no money!!! :(

hoho any kind soul wanna buy me one? [: th crumpler s super nice!!!!!

Anyway, th Band Badge is th in thingo now!!! :D everybody s wearg it! if you re not, that means you re out!!! :DDDDD

i got damn bored so i startd disturbg benhui by singing her chinese nd english oldiessssss, nd then she said i was ancient nd that i changd my genre of songs. :( ok l o l. then i was tryg t disturb shumin by singing her tears in heaven, tryg t reach every single high notes [: then i think i was disturbg jan throughout(maybe i meant everyday) cos i kept on talkg nd singing nd talkg nd singing. r o f l super funny canz.

Lloyd Banks - Till The End
aww it s like super nice i think im like weird r o f l [:

anyway,

[:[:[:[:[:

9:25 PM

Monday, July 10, 2006

ITALY WON 5-3!!! :D

although, i dont really support them but i prefer them t france!!! :D i switchd t them since,

england, my favourite team, is OUT :(

we have al th hot guys in team england!!! but whut happend? everyone screwd nd then they got out. shizzzzz. nvm at least team italy won! [: my mum was so cute when i reachd home just now she was like eh you very clever leh, predict italy win really win, so smart! :D hoho i tell you th eurocup that time i also predictd portugal win k! [: smart right! anyway, this world cup s super rough! first was th portugal nd some funny country s game, that s the most rough one k! r o f l. then was th one where england got out. i still cannot get over th fact that Rooney went t push Ronaldo nd step on yeah haha[: so th other team got a penalty kick(shit man) so, it indirectly leads to,

Beckham nd Lampard gone. :(

sad right? i tell you Lampard s super super cute okay!

okay then, it s yesterday s game, or rather, just now. hoho i wonder why Zidane go headbutt Materazzi? nvm lar at least like that Italy can win [: so, Zidane left his career with a red card, since he said he d quit after th game. He kinda lost his temper like how Rooney did. I wonder whut th other party says before th match. nd anyway, beckham s leaving too. And that, is friggin saddening, at least t me.

So, World Cup 2006 ended with Italy as champion. [:

Band was kinda boring tdy but then whatever la, cos it s mainly concentratg on th secones so, yeah :D

off t watch th ten o clock show byebye! :D

10:05 PM

Saturday, July 08, 2006

hey people everythg kinda got sorted out now, so it s okay alrd :D no more stress! [: everythg s kinda went back t normal [: that s th way i feel [: i decided t be shameless nd take th first big step out [: at least th stupid crappings nd lames got revivd [: i tell you no more of that stupid awkwardness ok! :D

Nickelback - Photograph
super nice ok!

anyway we had rehearsals tdy. super slack but then yeah [: then i finally got up t th alumni room cos everytime i went up, either th shuttle s close or th gate s lockd. then haha used th other way up( i finally realised abt that route tdy) then got into th alumni room t put th stuffs nd then i discoverd a whole lot of pictures! :D that s not th point anyway [:

shiyun told me alot of things tdy haha she s super funny omg! :D ahaha yilida yilixiao. omgoodness that s superr last year! [: r o f l i forgot abt th name alrd lorz! tdy was super funny too. i was laughing like siao while talkg t everyone :D everybody s behaving like a funnyass tdy hahahahaha :D

okay tdy i think people aint that stressd anymore :D but then if th top5 really think that they dont have our support or anythg, DONT WORRY k, you have al our support! [: just dont think too much nd stuffs :D

ahh i know i have no life nowadays cos im gg band more than often. but nvm larz, can gossip [:

haha superr funny larz! :D in case you dont know/ dont realise, th thingo they re pulling s a trumpet :DD

8:03 PM

Friday, July 07, 2006

RASCAL FLATTS - TOO GOOD IS TRUE
NANQUANMAMA - RENYUDEYANLEI
both are friggin nice trust me! : D

had chem test nd i screwed it badly cos i dont know how t do a single quesstion, nd im friggin serious lah!

anyway, that s not th point.

i felt like saying many things but you know, somehow, it s difficult t say them out. i can see a lot of people s stressed up nd stuff after handover, because sometimes even i am too. maybe th secfours put too much stress on us, or maybe it s just ourselves i dont know. things kinda changd after th whole handover shit nd maybe we just need more time or smthg. it s really bad you know. maybe we kinda misunderstood each other or whut, things are just no longer th way it used t be. now al th band nd top5 thingo just gets worse nd shits, no idea why. i want everything t go back t normal, th way we used t get high every now nd then nd th stupid gossips we have : D

vanessa: you know like, i dont know but you seem t have so much t say. nvm i ll listen! [: you know it s really nice talkg t you haha nd gossip haha but yeah, you seem kinda stressedup now too. okay you can tell me th stuffs alright! anyway, i ll give you th bandbadge tmr okayyyyy! loves!!! :D

mengjit: im really, really sorry for being damn dao for th whole of band prac tdy, i didnt even say hi. my bad. but then i dont know why, but it s kinda awkward t like talk now. somehow i wish things d go back t th way it al used t be. i know you re veryvery stressed up abt everything, but yes, relax yeah. you seem t be driftg away from me nd vanessa now, maybe it s just supposd t be like that, well i dont know. anyway, i really want things t like, get back t normal nd stuffs, although i know you re still kinda stressed up abt many things now. okay now i dont even know how t say it, but yeah haha loves okay.

anyway, th sec3 batch s like drifting away frm each other. maybe like i forgot who said, cos we used t be close so we re expecting alot from each other. like, t cope w your whutever job you re holding in band nd at th same time keeping th same relationship w your friends. i dont know about others but i really feel this way. i dont wanna lose friends because of this nd not like im not willing t take th first step or whut. uhh but nvm larz, maybe we just need t get use t it nd stuffs. nd im really really sorry mengjit for not talking tdy. im at fault too.

so tdy wasnt very happy, bt i need t vent it out.

Tomorrow
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't

When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't
Gimme a little time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today

I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day
I don't know how I'll feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day

Hey yeah yeah,Hey yeah yeah,
And I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah,Hey yeah yeah,
Maybe tomorrow
Hey yeah yeah,Hey yeah yeah,
And I know I'm not ready,
Hey yeah yeah,Hey yeah yeah,
Maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Yeah I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change

maybe this song fking describe how i feel but whutever larz, i need t talk t someone byebye.

10:50 PM

Thursday, July 06, 2006

everything seemed t change alot now, things are no longer th way it used t be. why cant everything be th way it used t be nd shitz. everything s kinda weird nd funny now. two weeks ago nd now s totally different, every single soul can sense it.

nvm, maybe it s just sup t be like that.

9:12 PM

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

yo people im emo no more! :D ahaha anyway im not emo larz, i just got a little, you know whut.

listen t AVENGED SEVENFOLD - WARMNESS ON THE SOUL! : D
it s friggin nice trust me!

th zhongjiyiban theme song s also very nice!
and renyudeyanlei or smthg by nanquanmama! [:

germany lost!!! okay im not sad or anything, i just got this friggin intuition that italy would win now [:

had chinesekoushi tdy not very bad cos it s kinda, simpler than i thought it t be [: so obviously im very happy!!! :D but i dont think i did very well cos th cai yao thingo i read it as cai xi -.- okay lo laugh AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA i was laughing so hard just now when wenyi ask me whether it was cai yao or not, then i suddenly rmbered there s such a word then i told her i said cai xi [: you know th word on top is like xi whut! plus is i anyhow guess one leh, not bad alrd right! [:

eyy th bandbadges arrivd yest! nd then everybody got fking impatient about their bandbadge -.-
relax la i wont steal your bandbadge or whatever, be patient, wait [:

anyway, we had this new english teacher t replace huda cos she ll be leaving soon. i swear that teacher s being a bitch can! she s just tagging along huda now only, nd then she said she d change our places. she havent even officially teach us at all yet leh! okay pleease la i hate her! you know how slack huda is, like you can pon her lessons nd all nd she doesnt even ask about you -.- now ths tcher came i think i d never even get t go t th toilet can! let s not even say pon now! i fking hate her pleeeeease!

eyyyyy i need a change of my sucky hairstyle! i want an emo hairstyle ahaha! [: but then i think it s frigging cool canz! :D

im posting super early tdy hahahahaha bcause i got nthg t do!!! (: byebye!!! : D

8:29 PM

Monday, July 03, 2006

i was listening t shanhuhai nd then suddenly i felt super emo. especially th chorus part. dont ask me i also dont know why :/ okay nd then it s feng nd i felt super emo too. i think i will die if i listen t th whole of jay s shiyiyuedexiaobang album. i kept feeling that at that particular period of time smthg significant happened but then i forgot whut. im trying very, very hard t recall : (

im still feeling very very emo now cos im still listening t these two songs especially hoping that it would help me recall smthg omg.

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okay i rmbered th significant thingo, anyway you dont need t know i forget th exact date it happened too. ahaha it s at th period when jay s novchopin s released! no wonder : (

8:46 PM

Sunday, July 02, 2006

omg Omg OMG england lost t portugal!!!!!

i mean like, HOW TH FUCK COULD THIS HAPPEN LA!!!!! they didnt score for th penalties blahblahblah nd omg i cannot believe portugal won. nd i dont know why th fuck rooney went t push ronaldo. so i think england fucking got kicked out of world cup.

th whole world cup thingo is super wrong.

3:00 PM

Saturday, July 01, 2006

i ate nd ate nd ate nd ate -.-

i just had lunch nd then im feeling hungry again so i went t take some jelly t eat. but then now less than like ten minutes, im feeling hungry again.

i think im deprived of food :D

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i suddenly feel like blogging!!! :D

im very, very, very happy!!!!! [:[:[:[:[: because someone told me smthg just now ahaha [: nvm la tell you also dont know.

oh i didnt mention whut we talked about yesterday in th lib also right? ahaha yest was damned fun. luckily i wasnt weak like i was after th heats! so it was damn fun [: but then camilla told me smthg shocking but whutever la, i dont care alrd -.- but then at that point of time when she told me i was like dayyyyym freaked out.

you know you know!!! i dont think ccp will give me demerits anymore! [: i wore th super loose socks on thursday nd then it dropped so it s like, you cannot see my socks nd all. then he was walking right behind me up th stairs then he was like, chongning your shirt, your socks huh, pull up abit. i was expecting him t like flare up nd all, like pump me nd shits, but then he just walked away [: he can like, remember my name -.- okay i think because of th argument th other time(if you still dont know about th argument i had with him then too bad, im not repeating. anyway fyi, th argument was very, very heated nd long). so yeah ahaha! [: i feel very accomplished, especially after th argument th other time [: then after that i went down t th bkshop with amanda(you know how s her attire), then on th way up on our class level we saw ccp again, then you know i still havent pull up my socks, nd ahahahaha amanda s attire! but he just walked right past us [: i feel so accomplished okay! [: okay maybe he just didnt want another argument nd waste his time :D

for yesterday s pics right!!! go t ohmychocolate.shutterfly.com :D then right, if there s a need for pw come nd ask me!!! i will tell you!!! :D

or you can ask me t send you particular pictures [: or th one with your face in it blahblahblah [:

th video s uploaded into youtube! :D comecomecome nd ask me for th add ahaha! but it s nothing la, just th bandship dance nd shits.

no now i want t watch tv or smthg, byebye [:

10:18 PM